the personal Blog
At the moment, life — or a higher power, the divine — is throwing me into situations I never planned on handling right now. It’s making me accept help without being able to give anything in return. It‘s making me weak on purpose. Mostly physically, but slowly mentally as well.
18 | 08 | 2025
Alright, let’s talk about love for a little bit. But don’t expect me to stay on the main road. This will most likely, knowing myself, get messy. I’ll be taking shortcuts, bypasses and service roads…
28 | 07 | 2025
Seems like I’m entering my soft era — not just in my mind, but in my body, too. And it feels entirely new to me. I grew up in an environment where crying…
23 | 07 | 2025
I keep doing it. Over and over again.
And for the love of God, I don’t even know why…
10 | 07 | 2025
Don’t make me stop. Don’t make me sit. Don’t make me stand still. I don’t want my thoughts catching up with me. I don’t want to feel. I don’t want to work through the mess of emotions buried underneath…
01 | 07 | 2025
I’ve been writing emails back and forth with one of my closest friends —
and she pointed something out that stuck with me:…
25 | 06 | 2025
Please excuse me —
but this time, all I have are questions.
Sometimes that’s all there is in my head.
One question leads to another
and another
and another…
15 | 06 | 2025
“I’m not afraid of change.”
It’s become a mantra of mine. (And maybe my way of living.)
I repeat it again and again:
I’m not afraid of change..
10 | 06 | 2025
I had a lot of conversations — with friends, family, clients, even strangers — about me leaving, the first time around.
The most asked questions were always the same:
Why?..
02 | 06 | 2025
If you come into my home, you’ll usually see all doors closed.
Because as children, we were told to always close the doors — otherwise the warmth would leave the room. Leave the house..
27 | 05 | 2025
It is said the first step is always the hardest. And I agree with that.
But once I have the courage and strength to push the first domino in some direction (I’ll figure out later if it was the right one or not), there’s no stopping the motion..
22 | 05 | 2025