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Life is a highway – a wholesome metaphor for this winding and beautiful journey. And it’s all about learning to drive manual. Getting a feel for when to change gears. Knowing when you can speed up — use the turbo…
15 | 01 | 2026
Leaving home — travelling — has given me more of myself, more of the world. I gained awareness and openness to things that had never crossed my mind before. I got to know many versions of myself. I lived through…
08 | 01 | 2026
I’m standing in the space between what was and what’s coming — and it’s quieter than I expected. At first it felt strange – I was more used to a fast paced chaos with…
01 | 01 | 2026
I’ve been on the run — an escape from “home” — since I was probably sixteen. I noticed early on that I didn’t quite fit, that I didn’t belong. I wanted something else. I was craving more. I knew exactly what I was running from, but never what I was seeking. I carried values, ideals, and dreams…
14 | 12 | 2025
“You were always such a happy child.”
I‘m probably not the only one who‘s heard these words before — from parents, relatives, people who knew me when life still felt soft and uncomplicated…
28 | 11 | 2025
Everything is temporary.
Somehow, this fact makes me sad — and yet, it also brings a strange sense of relief. Life wouldn’t have meaning if it went on forever and ever. I think — and this is just my humble opinion…
08 | 11 | 2025
Yes, life’s a learning curve. I started out running before I even knew how to walk. I dreamed of flying, but was too scared to jump. I always rushed to be somewhere — anywhere but here. But lately, I’ve begun to understand that slowing down and being present isn’t so bad after all — it’s actually where the magic happens…
20 | 10 | 2025
As much as I thought I’d shed that layer of skin, I’m still a people pleaser at heart. I keep carrying the weight of expectations others might have of me, and placing them all onto myself. When will I finally start pleasing myself…
01 | 10 | 2025
I’m struggling with my life‘s purpose. I don‘t know what it is – what it should be or what I want it to be. I‘m coasting through life, thinking I’ll stumble upon its meaning – hoping for a deeper well. But most days, I can‘t even seem to find myself. Society made me believe…
21| 09 | 2025
I don’t mean this in the usual sense of the phrase.
I benefit from my friends immensely, all the time — and not at all sexually…
17 | 09 | 2025
I guess at some point life is just going to throw you into the situation you’ve been trying to avoid for the longest time. It could be anything…
07 | 09 | 2025
This rollercoaster called life just keeps on moving.
Up. Down. Left. Right. Circles. Flatlands. Highs. Lows.
And now this: a fork.
28 | 08 | 2025
At the moment, life — or a higher power, the divine — is throwing me into situations I never planned on handling right now. It’s making me accept help without being able to give anything in return. It‘s making me weak on purpose. Mostly physically, but slowly mentally as well.
18 | 08 | 2025
Alright, let’s talk about love for a little bit. But don’t expect me to stay on the main road. This will most likely, knowing myself, get messy. I’ll be taking shortcuts, bypasses and service roads…
28 | 07 | 2025
Seems like I’m entering my soft era — not just in my mind, but in my body, too. And it feels entirely new to me. I grew up in an environment where crying…
23 | 07 | 2025
I keep doing it. Over and over again.
And for the love of God, I don’t even know why…
10 | 07 | 2025
Don’t make me stop. Don’t make me sit. Don’t make me stand still. I don’t want my thoughts catching up with me. I don’t want to feel. I don’t want to work through the mess of emotions buried underneath…
01 | 07 | 2025
I’ve been writing emails back and forth with one of my closest friends —
and she pointed something out that stuck with me:…
25 | 06 | 2025
Please excuse me —
but this time, all I have are questions.
Sometimes that’s all there is in my head.
One question leads to another
and another
and another…
15 | 06 | 2025
“I’m not afraid of change.”
It’s become a mantra of mine. (And maybe my way of living.)
I repeat it again and again:
I’m not afraid of change..
10 | 06 | 2025
I had a lot of conversations — with friends, family, clients, even strangers — about me leaving, the first time around.
The most asked questions were always the same:
Why?..
02 | 06 | 2025
If you come into my home, you’ll usually see all doors closed.
Because as children, we were told to always close the doors — otherwise the warmth would leave the room. Leave the house..
27 | 05 | 2025
It is said the first step is always the hardest. And I agree with that.
But once I have the courage and strength to push the first domino in some direction (I’ll figure out later if it was the right one or not), there’s no stopping the motion..
22 | 05 | 2025